I visited my friend Tracy recently and we were talking about my blog. Specifically this blog. She said something I found interesting, which is that I’ve been absent from my writings. Not really myself. She didn’t elaborate further, but I agreed that I’ve not been “all here” and I think it’s time for me to get back to my usual, artsy, emotive self. In this blog and my regular blog, www.HeatherBartlettArt.com. I miss telling you my heart secrets. I am tired of hiding so many parts of myself – my feelings and what I am going through inside. The things I am going through motivate much of what I do and the order in which I do it.
I have learned, in oh say the past eight months, to be more discreet. I would say too discreet. I haven’t struck that balance between being discreet about specifics and having a very open dialog about my heart, spirit and inspirations.
I will post my food journaling for the week tomorrow. I also have some food photos for you. I may even be starting up a food blog at some point.
For now I just want you to read the lyrics and watch the video I’ve posted by Daughtry. I’m not a big American Idol fan, but I like Daughtry. Recently I’ve really been able to connect to some of his songs. The video is of the homemade variety and although it has some very adolescent style emo transitions, I love the little cartoon illustrations, I think they are adorable and I chose this video because of them. If I had a choice I would erase most of what the rest of the video has and replace it with the song’s lyrics.
“Over You”
Now that it’s all said and done,
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should’ve started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I’d doubt you,
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I’m slowly getting closure.
I guess it’s really over.
I’m finally getting better.
And now I’m picking up the pieces.
I’m spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should’ve started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I’d doubt you,
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I’m slowly getting closure.
I guess it’s really over.
I’m finally getting better.
And now I’m picking up the pieces.
I’m spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through,
I got over you.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should’ve started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I’d doubt you,
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should’ve started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I’d doubt you,
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I’m slowly getting closure.
I guess it’s really over.
I’m finally getting better.
And now I’m picking up the pieces.
I’m spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I’m putting my heart back together,
‘Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through,
I got over you.
Heather: I am so sorry; I never guessed who your “problem person” was…
I have sent you a couple of emails, to your old Allzah address; I figure either it is no longer working or the spam filter is killing me…basically, if you ever need an additional person to talk to (doesn’t have to be anything heavy), you have my email address…if not, that’s cool too…
Be well, Hang in there, and keep Writing…